I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to follow my mind's impulse as distraction.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to run from the moment of honest application of myself for any reason, and specifically if I'm running because of a creation of fear. There is fear behind it all. It is the point of fear, which is only as real as I allow it to be, that drives and runs this the doubt and such that halts me. So,
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to doubt my ability to direct myself according to how I actually, really want to be doing.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to give up on myself.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to give in to the ease of allowing my mental programs to direct me into the normal pleasure seeking modes of distraction.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to defeat myself when I am conflicted between honest application and time-wasting activities.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself as less than my potential.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to run toward distraction when I am reluctant to face a point or challenge (due to doubt/fear of failure) instead of at least investigating the reluctance. I commit myself to figuring out why I am resisting if and when I allow the resistance to win.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist myself, and so I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to turn over control to the ease of my mind as what's comfortable and familiar.
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When and as I see myself consider partaking in the distraction, I stop I breathe.
I realize that I will need to have excruciating honesty within this point, so that I may no longer run.
I commit myself to no longer run from my responsibility or directed task.
I commit myself to realizing every moment of distraction, and within that realization make a real choice as an honest acceptance and allowance into the distraction. In situations where the distraction feels necessary and isn't in actuality, I commit myself to the investigation of the point that caused this energetic experience, so that slowly but surely, I will walk into self-honest direction in every moment.
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