Day 443 - Petrified in My Hiatus

In a whirlwind of varying forms of self-interest, I've taken great pause in my blogging efforts. It's a mixture of many points, but the basic resistances and fears are now clear enough for me to resume writing.

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I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear what others will think of me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to forget that I am a self leader.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to make my process dependent on the state and condition of my mind, readily allowing fear to shut me up and shut me down.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to forget the power that comes with writing myself to freedom.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desire to create only great posts, and then choose to NOT write because I fear my writing will be relative crap.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the multidimensions of comparison, within and without, as a tool of self-diminishment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to manifest a  lack of confidence and downward spiral of my physical process.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to slow down, and reassess where I'm at, where I'm headed, and what changes I want to make.

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I commit myself to be creative.

I commit myself to STOP self-judgment that bars my creation processes.

I commit myself to explore the multitude of ways that I can express myself online to share my process and the cool information I've been investigating.

I commit myself to the remembrance of my higher purpose, and that I am not just writing for me.

I commit myself to make the rest of 2018, something I can be proud of, and stop fooling around.

In this one life, I have a chance to really live.

Here forward, I commit myself to continue sharing all that is me in this journey.

Thank you (for your patience).