My perception is that this point is ginormous: to cut all cravings and stick with myself here in every moment; no more accepted and allowed distractions. So, in a similar format to how I've chosen to walk out of my nail biting habit. I will consider this point every time I see it, then make the decision to clear the pattern with self-forgiveness, or run/hide and wait for the pattern's time loop to once more decide to self-honestly choose what's best for me and all, or deliberately suppress the procrastination with instant feel goods (i.e. food, video games, reading, chewing on my nails, etc./pick your poison) To begin to bring this point consistently into my awareness to be able to make this decision starts here.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to run into a specialized/hidden form of procrastination to deal with the discomfort that arises from procrastination. Holy crap, this is nuts.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that this uncomfortable feeling that arises in me is a consequence of not acting within the responsibility that I have decided to undergo in that moment.
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see how these cravings for yummy food and feel-good-fingernail bites are a manifestation of procrastination.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to attempt to procrastinate my responsibilities in created ways that almost had me thinking that I could dodge them altogether.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to to believe that I can effectively dodge responsibilities through removing myself from the equation.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see, understand and realize my own created method for ineffectively dealing with responsibility through procrastination actions.
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I commit myself to show others that procrastination can be broken down and dismantled with a slow, honest look at self's actions.
I commit myself to prove to myself that I can handle my responsibilities.
I commit myself to understanding how and why I have chosen a particular expression as a form of delay.
I commit myself to facing within self-honesty the discomfort that arises when I procrastinate a responsibility, and to be keenly aware of what I do to alleviate that uncomfortable feeling of delay.
I commit myself to this process of unfolding my habits as the true nature of what I have been allowing myself to exist as/through.
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