Day 37 - Control Freakyness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to attempt to control my environment and the people in it.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that I can control my external environment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think that I can control my anxiety by attempting to control everything around me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that through trying to control my external environment, I create/amplify my anxious state.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to get angry and myself and others for attempting to control that which is not within one's sphere of control.

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I commit myself to understanding how anxiety arises within me in each moment.

I commit myself to no longer trying to control my environment to appease my self-interested desires.

I commit myself to fully realizing the actual extent of my control of my self.

I commit myself to seeing when I am trying to align my environment to suit me.

I commit myself to self-alignment...meaning, I will correct and control myself within my environment only.

I commit myself to this process of realizing my power over myself, alone, to reach the point of maximum effectiveness in the world.

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Special thanks to this Earth Review post for perspective and support on control freaks.